ok i am now typing in total darkness which means i keep on hitting the wrong keys and having to retype! this is so tiring but i can't on the lights cos my sis is stills sleeping..oh well...
school have been really busy and i still thought i wld have a rather relaxing time this term..all the projects are coming up and i hate projects,or rather i hate presentations...hate having to speak to an audience cos i wld get all nervous and trembly...
it's been raining for like non stop for the past wk...usually i like rain but that is when i am at home, listening to the rain hitting against the window, with soothing music playing in the backgrnd, not when i am trying to get from one place to the next in campus!!! hate getting all drenched and worse still, endure the 19 degree celsius aircon in the lecture hall in my drenched clothes!
oh well, enuf of complaining, i juz found out that V6 is going to release their concert vcd soon! yay!!!!!!!! i muz definitely buy it, even if it means not having lunch for 2 wks! haha but aniwae, i neva had lunch?!! so it doesn't really make much of a difference.Go kun looks so good in that Winkup issue that i bought a few days ago!!!juz love him to bits! wish i cld have a chance to see him in real person!!!!
Currently still waiting for Prime of Life cd(overseas version) to cum HMV...why are they so slow?!!!!!

haven been writing here for some time...juz dun know what to write..everyday seems the same as any other day..made a lot of resolutions but i didn't keep a single one..feeling really lousy now.intended to do so many things but i keep on procrastinating..
aniwae, went to watch peter pan and the movie is so sweet! the little boy is so cute!!!!!! wish i had a brother like that.
den watched The Last Samurai also. it was nice but rather sad...makes me all the more interested in Japan's history.
later going HMV to see if Prime of Life cd is out but dun think so and i wanna get W-inds. concert vcd too but HMV might not even be importing it. 4 day holiday is almost over den it is back to school! sigh...

i wonder why am i blogging in the middle of the nite...juz can't sleep nowadays...
sometimes i wonder what do i want to do, what is it that really matters most to me, is it my family, my frens, my dreams etc...i really have no idea...sometimes, there is this feeling that i want to escape from everything that is restricting me, escape to a faraway place where nobody knows who i am, somewhere where i can juz live life the way i want to, without having to bother abt what others think...many a times, i have realized that no such thing as paradise exists..u dun juz find a paradise, cos there is no such place on earth...paradise exists only in ur heart...where ur imagination takes u too...
i wonder why am i such a conflicting person, i can be laughing in a moment, den the minute, i will enter a depression mode...i scare myself sometimes with my extreme mood swings, i try to gain control of my feelings and nobody knows the things that are going thru my mind cos i have learnt to hide eveything under a cool exterior, while it doesn't make me exactly happy to know that i have such an ability, it does make things easier for me and everybody, otherwise they wld have to put up with my 101 mood changes in a day
rite now, what i really wanna do is to find someone who really understands what i am feeling or who is feeling the same way as me...it makes me feel so much more secure if i know there is someone out there who is juz like me....

suddenly felt like blogging...perhaps cos there is so much on my mind now but i can't really tell anione abt it...
went for dance class todae and when i sae him, i felt so happy! i wonder if this is a crush, juz a passing phase. he is the first guy whom i have ever felt this way, tt's why i feel so confused now. aniwae, he is older than me by like maybe 6 yrs but i still find him very cute, like a small kid. and he was wearing this white singlet todae tt showed off his biceps and build so perfectly. and i realised he got tattoo on his back. b4 tt, i didn't really like guys to have tattoo but he totally changed my mindset todae cos it looks so perfectly good on him! omg, i cld go on pages and pages describing his every action and ever smile but if i put it into words, somehow, the feeling might not be there animore, so i better leave some of these thoughts in my mind
guess this is what it feels like to like someone but yet can't do anything abt it. i cld neva tell him my feelings..he is so attractive, and gentle and humorous, i bet there are thousands of girls out there who wants to be wit him, i dun stand a chance but i still like him aniwae..like the way he smiles, like the way he jokes, like the way he looks when he is thinking deeply, loves the way he dance, his confidence and his coolness...i thought i wld never like someone, i thought i didn't really have feelings but now he is making me think abt him every minute, every second...now i know what it feels ....

suddenly felt like blogging...perhaps cos there is so much on my mind now but i can't really tell anione abt it...
went for dance class todae and when i sae him, i felt so happy! i wonder if this is a crush, juz a passing phase. he is the first guy whom i have ever felt this way, tt's why i feel so confused now. aniwae, he is older than me by like maybe 6 yrs but i still find him very cute, like a small kid. and he was wearing this white singlet todae tt showed off his biceps and build so perfectly. and i realised he got tattoo on his back. b4 tt, i didn't really like guys to have tattoo but he totally changed my mindset todae cos it looks so perfectly good on him! omg, i cld go on pages and pages describing his every action and ever smile but if i put it into words, somehow, the feeling might not be there animore, so i better leave some of these thoughts in my mind
guess this is what it feels like to like someone but yet can't do anything abt it. i cld neva tell him my feelings..he is so attractive, and gentle and humorous, i bet there are thousands of girls out there who wants to be wit him, i dun stand a chance but i still like him aniwae..like the way he smiles, like the way he jokes, like the way he looks when he is thinking deeply, loves the way he dance, his confidence and his coolness...i thought i wld never like someone, i thought i didn't really have feelings but now he is making me think abt him every minute, every second...now i know what it feels ....